| early morning thoughts |
[Feb. 3rd, 2007|02:30 pm] |
There are times in my life that I'm good about chronicling my life and then there is the rest of the time! Things have happened (both good and bad and unfortunately I seem to write about the bad more than the good). Two weeks ago I went to the first John Legend Concert in Hong Kong. I had not been to one of his concerts before but had been duly informed that was very good on stage. And they were right.
It stuck me though how theatrical concerts and sporting events (have been watching the Rocky movies, including the new release, and the spectacle that is in the movies reminded me of how sporting events are done in real life) have become. Last night McEntire and I watched Cinderella Man. I had not seen it before but if it was accurate (which I think it was) of how boxing was in the 20s and 30s, there is so much more spectacle now.
At the John Legend concert the lights, the staging, the theatrics of it all, that's what we expect now. I don't know when a concert or a boxing match changed to reflect this. When I was at TWU I knew people who worked load in for sporting events, concerts, and other such events and heard about the extensive equipment that was used (even for car shows and the like!) Why as a society do we need a show to sell us anything? I'm not saying it's bad, I'm just curious what it means.
This is odd coming from someone who wants to make her living in the theatre. In fact when I was at the concert I thought it would be fun to stage a concert. I don't know, it's just some morning musings. No answers, just questions?
But on a different front, another event in my life that was actually rather enjoyable, the beginning of this week we had auditions for the evening of one-acts and solo pieces that DEER Theatre is doing in April. I will be directing one of McEntire's one-acts and a solo piece by A.V. Phibes. I am excited to be doing this! It's been a while since I directed and I still view myself as a newbie.
It caught me a little off guard but I not only really enjoyed the auditions but I felt right at home. I remember the first time I had auditions, I was so scared and felt like such a fraud. As I've done more auditions my confidence has grown as has my enjoyment but this last one was enjoyable but more than that, it was just right. There are times in my life that I get a feeling that I am right where I'm suppose to be and that was it. I knew I didn't want to be on the other side of the desk auditioning myself but I needed to be watching. And not because I was scared since auditions are scary (because they are and I applaud everyone who auditioned for me and Pizzuto) but because right now (and this may change someday) I want to direct.
I guess those last four words sum it up, "I want to direct". It's had for me to declare what 'I want'. Not because I don't want to say or because I'm scared, it's truly because most of the time I want to do so much I don't know what I want to do more! But as much as I enjoy being on stage, I love to direct!
Now lets just see if I can keep the insecurities at bay during the times that I'm alone. That seems to be when I doubt myself the most, questioning what actually makes me think I can be a director. So far I'm doing ok. It keeps trying to sneak it's way in but I'm fighting it and just working on the plays. It also helps me to know that no matter how insecure I may feel, when it comes down to it, I know I will do my best not to fail my actors! I can't. They've put their trust in me and I can't fail them! |
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From: (Anonymous)
2007-02-05 04:21 pm (UTC)
You will do grat! | (Link)
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You have a great attitude about what you “want” to do and if you just get a little tougher you will be a mighty director. You do not have to ‘try to pay attention and act like you are interested in the story’ they are telling you are helping them to BE the interesting story. Enjoy the directing. Momma Mac | |
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